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My Role in Racism by Z1Gamer, literature

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My Role in Racism

I'm lost For a time I felt like I didn't need to know I didn't want to know my role It was me blinding myself My comfort was in not knowing The ceasing of the pain was there so that I could press forward I didn't grow up being called a word that I hate. I didn't grow up in a rough part of town. I didn't grow up scared of certain parts of town. I didn't grow up watching all of roots. I grew up surrounded by mutiple races The races I had were on my games The races I had was put to shame. I grew up not knowing my role to play. I don't know my role to play in this game of life. I don't know my role to play I don't know my voice in this pla

Mistletoe Lane by Z1Gamer, literature

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Mistletoe Lane

Welcome to Mistletoe Lane Where we start on top of a Hill And we end with Victory! Take a walk down a beautiful lane where friendship, family, and spouses are much abound! Love one another one another, hug one another, teach one another, hold a hand, take a kiss on the cheek on the way. Mistletoe Lane where lives are brightened up and new creations are abound. It's Christmas time, it's the perfect street to walk on down. There's children to see and lots to play, friends to see who've been far away. Welcome to Mistletoe Lane where the sides are green and the moon is staring outside! But don't worry we have lights on in here tonight! We

Pencil by Z1Gamer, literature

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Pencil

It in my hand. My choice weapon isn't a pen It's a pencil See my choice weapon is double sided because I'm going to rewrite my story before I rewrite yours. See I prefer a pencil over a pen because with a pencil I can erase the marks of my history to make room for the future. See there are many things I wrote on myself thanks to People Demons I mean myself I don't know anymore. See there is a reason I like to write in pencil and it's not because of fear of making something permanent. It's because there are things I need to erase from my Life My head My thoughts I mean the way I used to perceive. See you draw and sketch with pencil so you

I am a Speaker/Pastor by Z1Gamer, literature

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I am a Speaker/Pastor

I am one who uses his voice .... What you can't hear it? I'll get a bit louder for you. I refuse to stay quiet anymore I'm here to rise in the hope for me I will speak to people that will reach the nations My voice will dig a well for others My voice is my tithe for it is my offering To think that I would stop there is blasphemy to me Don't you know that I'm no heathen Gosh get your own tater tots I saved mine for later and that time is now If I forget to use who I am I just don't recognize my price Don't forget you're not done yet either Your voice has stayed too quiet Give me a shout Give me a shout Why aren't you shouting yet

Jesus the Victorous by Z1Gamer, literature

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Jesus the Victorous

Thanks to the lord I can love myself without concern of what others think. For He did not give me problems, but beautiful compilations that make an absolutely beautiful melody. For victory from the Lord isn't given to those who ran the race, but to those who grab their medals. Victory isn't a heated debate of do's and don'ts but with the Lord He just says go forth and conquer. For power isn't given to the weak, but those who have a resolute mind to never be complacent. To the one who is lost in their beliefs don't be afraid to lose the battle in yourself so the Lord can redeem the time to shine. For those that feel incomplete don't forg

Tides by Z1Gamer, literature

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Tides

They come in They come out It could family, friends, loved ones, enemies, or strangers. Most of the time it's just life. That's what I used to think at least. Now I understand what source of the current is from. It's from war that we never had a choice to be in. We all stand on the beach with sand under our feet. You can try to move from place to place to get out. I'm here to tell you though that the world is the beach, there is no escape. You could go swimming, but it's dangerous out in that ocean. I simply suggest something simple. Just stand comfortably on the shore. Get your feet just a little wet. Stand still and feel the warmth of the s

Carnival by Z1Gamer, literature

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Carnival

Carnival Daughter: Hey mommy can we go to the carnival? Mom: Why do you want to go to a place, when you already live there? Just look around at the world Sweaty and you will see the craziness of a carnival that you can see by having mommy pay money for some ticket. You got people arguing over stupid stuff all the time and nobody comes up with the answers for them. Then for the answers we do have people don’t even want to hear them. Those religious folks think they no more than science. People just love to argue over nothing. If you want to enjoy crazy food that isn’t healthy for you than we can just go to any fast food place. Th

Do You Even Know? by Z1Gamer, literature

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Do You Even Know?

Do you even know? Do you know what it's like to have things in your head that won't let you go? Do you know what it's like to be free from some things, but chained to others? Do you even know what it's like to be free from somethings at times and them hear a whisper in your head that won't let you forget and be free? I do, I've been forgiven for my sins by the person I wronged, I know God forgives me, and I've forgiven, myself too. Do you know what it's like to get chills when you see a certain car or a person who looks like them? Do you know what it's like to look like you got it all together, but inside being scared at time to tell ho

Let It Rain by Z1Gamer, literature

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Let It Rain

I thought to myself about how there is so little rain in California. I knew that we did not get enough rain to help fight the drought. Most likely it still got worse. Then I heard a new voice in my head. It spoke to me saying that if we wanted rain we have to grow and accept pain. It told me that we have been fighting change in our lives. You fight to make new laws. You dishonor those who came before you. You fight to keep the identity you have latched onto safe. You don't want to find out more about yourselves. You want to force your ideas into the mold of the old. You risk changing things up not knowing the doors that you shall open.

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Jesus the Victorous by Z1Gamer, literature

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Carnival

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

Oct 1
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Deviant for 15 years
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Not good at being creative as often as I want to be, learning Japanese, hope to make video games when I grow up, and not very good at drawing for now but practice can help with that.

Current Residence: Home
deviantWEAR sizing preference: X-Large
Print preference: Times New Roman
Favourite genre of music: R&B
Favourite photographer: Myself
Favourite style of art: Anime, Manga, 3D
Operating System: ?
MP3 player of choice: MP3
Shell of choice: Black because if it were to be made it would probably be a bomb too.
Wallpaper of choice: My original Pokemon
Skin of choice: Flesh
Favourite cartoon character: Megaman (before starforce)
Personal Quote: I am disliked by so many peoples because I'm so annoying. Well I don't give a crap about that.

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Anything I am willing to trade that you want.

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Games, food, TV,and good friends that I can depend and trust.

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Z1Gamer

Mar 16, 2020

Let's be vulnerable

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So I'm going to write out something super vulnerable to me, but that's sadly normal to this site. I've been super lonely. In real like I've always wanted a strong community to be surrounded by and to be with, but that been hard to find consistency in my life or that. At times I've attempted to enter a relationship to fill that void without realizing I was trying to do so hoping for some consistency. The painful part is that I keep getting rejected more than not before I come to terms with my feelings or knowing what I wanted. Then I have to go through a cycle o being by myself because I scared the women off and hurt the friendship which I've

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Z1Gamer

Jul 19, 2019

Can somebody explain? (open discussion)

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So I'm visiting this old site once again to see new art and delete old messages and I'm just scrolling through. I noticed that most of the scrolling art on the site is smut, ecchi, nudity, basically porn. Can somebody explain how this came to be on this site, I know I was away for years at a time, but how did the line between art and smut get so blurred? Also how did people start getting the idea of sexualizing creatures like pokemon? It seems completely unnecessary. I that there are many fetishes and to say that I never got caught up in lust towards some sort of porn would be a blatant lie, but how did we start to head that way? I know there has been an argument by people that by opening up the gateway for same sex being okay we open the door for more, but doesn't this seem crazy to people other than just me?

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Z1Gamer

Jan 15, 2018

Love

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I just came home from a long night out, about 5 hours, but who cares about that. I was walking up the hill to my house and I was thinking about how certain speakers and pastors have to know about what they are going to say and practice it before they do. I started to think about a certain church I listen to a lot called Bethel. It's located in Redding, California. They talk about how they are lead by the spirit on everything.Then I started to think that the Pastors must practice before they talk to their congregation of course, but then the spirit filled part of their preaching must come from what they hear God wanting them to say before they